Is The Audience Being Judgmental?

Back when I was in school, part of what gave me stage fright was that I thought everyone in the audience was being judgmental towards me. I thought that they were going to come up to me and point out everything that I did wrong, or, worse, talk about it behind my back.

I thought they were sitting there, waiting to find something wrong with what I did. Ready to pounce.

My Epiphany

When I was about halfway through college, someone told me that the audience wants me to do well. They aren’t waiting for me to mess up, they’re happy (maybe even excited) to hear me.

It’s been a long road to change my thought process about an audience being judgmental towards me. It’s hard. Every once in awhile, I still catch myself going back into that kind of thinking.

Reminder

Fast forward to now (an undisclosed amount of time, lol). I subscribe to some blogs, a few of which are about psychology because I teach.

A few weeks ago, I saw this quote in an email: “If you feel that people are judging you, it’s really you who are judging yourself.” That quote was to talk about this article from one of the blogs that I follow.

Does that mean I’m judgmental towards myself? Probably, but how am I going to get any better if I don’t assess my playing ability?

It’s good to be able to assess your ability, but this article was a good reminder to not be so hard on myself. Maybe I need to set aside practice times when I only focus on what I did right so I learn how to not be constantly assessing myself.

This article reminded me of that conversation I had back in college. Everyone needs reminders like that. I hope it helps you.

Fake Performance Practice Technique

Fake performance can be done in many different ways, and it’s vital for during the last few weeks before an actual performance. It helps you learn how to keep going despite mistakes and it helps get your jitters out before the performance.

Simple Definition of a Fake Performance

The simple definition of a fake performance it to play through a piece without stopping. This is so hard! We want to go back and fix the mistake. It’s a knee-jerk reaction, but try to fight it.

Play your mistake as if you meant to do it by extending the length of the wrong note, rather than changing it right away. For example, if the note is supposed to be a half note, then hold your wrong note for a whole beat before correcting it. If it’s a sixteenth note, hold the incorrect note for the entire time of a sixteenth, then move on to the next note.

If your mistake was an incorrect rhythm, just make sure that the number of beats equal the correct amount for the measure and move on. You get the idea. No one needs to know that there was an actual mistake.

Different Ideas for a Fake Performance

As I said before, there are several ways to do a fake performance. Here are several ideas. Each fake perfomance style increases the nervousness, which helps you get ready for being nervous for the stage.

Toys

I don’t care how old or young you are, perform for a stuffed animal or a doll. It will help you because you’ll see their eyes staring at you out of the corner of your eye. Toys are generally non-judgemental, from what I’ve noticed. 😉

Metronome

I know I didn’t mention it here, but I personally get a little nervous with the metronome. This helps with the gradual increase of nervousness that I try to build up before a performance.

The metronome forces me to not stop. I just own my mistake by playing it for the length of the note that I was supposed to play, then move on to the next note that I’m supposed to play. This is really hard. If you’re having a hard time doing that, try holding your mistake for twice as long as the note you were supposed to play – this gives you time to think.

Record Yourself

Recording yourself creates nervousness. Creating a sound recording makes me less nervous than a video, but you might be different. I’m not saying that you should do anything with the recording unless you want to, I’m just saying that creating a recording helps a lot.

Play for One or Two People

I am a very non-judgemental person, so those are the kind of friends that I have. I have been known to play for a friend and have them pretend to be judgemental, all the way down to the looks on their faces. It really helps me get the jitters out ahead of time.

Play in a (Somewhat) Public Place

Play your wind instrument outside. It’s not necessarily around other people, but someone could come along.

Play with your windows open. People might be walking past your house, they might not. You don’t know.

You can go to any public piano and start playing. No one will stop you (unless there’s a pandemic). No one might be there, but someone could walk by.

Ideas for public pianos? Movie theaters, nursing homes, churches, shopping malls, just keep your eyes open. You’ll see them. As I said before, don’t do this during the social distancing thing.

Conclusion

As you can see, the ideas for fake performance get harder and harder. This is on purpose. The whole purpose for fake performance is to practice performing. This way the real performance goes off without a hitch. Or maybe less hitches.